Today I was rejected…
For a moment I let it sink in, i let it weight me down. I felt the bitter sting that for so many years I desperately tried to avoid.
For a moment i found myself back in my teenage years, clawing at anything and everything that I thought would bring me approval, attention, and love.
For a moment I slipped down the deep dark space of judgement. I allowed myself to listen to that voice that screamed so loud it echoed in my head “SEE, YOU AREN’T GOOD ENOUGH”…
For a moment I allowed my heart to cave in, and my feet to slip out from under me, and all of my insecurities to come crashing over me like a wave.
For a moment I placed my value in someone else’s hands, and for a moment i lost sight of who I am.
It doesn’t matter how long or deep into your self love journey you go, these moments will always arise, and when they do they will hurt just as deeply as they did in the beginning.
But guess what? When we make the time to do the work, when we become intentional with how we’re living our lives, and deepening our relationship to self, we have the ability to tap back into our truth. When we’ve allowed ourselves to feel and see our brilliance, it becomes harder to stay in a space of disbelief.
So for a moment I gave a fuck what you thought about me, and for a moment I gave myself over to the fear & doubt. But as quickly as it came, I allowed it to pass me by. I reminded myself of my strength, my beauty, and that there is no one else in this world that can dictate my worth.
I reminded myself of ME.
So don’t get discouraged if the moment comes, instead embrace it as the test that it is, and know that you’re building your resilience. With each moment that comes, your rebound will get shorter, and your light will only get brighter. You my friend are here for amazing things, so don’t stay down for too long.